just like that. from a hundred miles an hour to asleep in a nanosecond. I wanted so badly to lie down next to him on the couch, to wrap my arms around him and sleep. just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. but I lacked the courage. I was gawky and he was beautiful. so I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and he was a hurricane.